Yesterday
after stage 2, I was absolutely fisted. I was so bad during the stage and in the
evening I couldn't do anything but lie in my bed. It was a horrible feeling. I
spent the whole evening wondering how I was going to make it past the first week
of the tdf. Especially given that on paper, stage 3 was harder than stage
2.
Stage
2, from Strasbourg to Luxembourg was a
good one for the team but left me with a mind full of self-doubt. Thor bounced
back from having a serious paper cut at 65km/hr to his arm, to reclaiming the
yellow jersey. So although the team was buzzing over the day’s success, I was
hiding under my sheets all evening, wondering how I was going to be able to do
another day and worried as hell as we were only two days into this bloody
epic!
Even
more amazing about yesterday’s stage was that Thor had to cross the line
pedalling with one leg. He fell victim to one of McEwen’s accidental, "Opps.
Go-off-my-sprint-line-for-no-apparent-reason-in-the-last-50m" tricks. Thor later
declared that he really felt like he was going to win if he hadn’t pulled his
foot after Robbie veered across his sprint line. It’s pretty disappointing from
Robbie. To me, there didn’t look to be any reason why he needed to, or should
have, moved across like that. Even more disappointing is that the commissaires
didn’t act on it.
Oh
well, we still took the jersey after hammering all the intermediate sprints and
with Thor picking up some bonus seconds in the end as well. None of this though
was making me feel any better about my crap form.
Julian Dean - Team Credit Agricole sprinter. Photo copyright Roadcycling.com
Stage
3 from Luxembourg to
Valkenburg in Holland, proved to be a huge improvement in
form for me. After shitting my pants all night, today I was a completely
different person on the bike. I'm not sure what happened overnight but I was
really stoked not to be feeling like yesterday because if I had have, I don't
think that I would’ve been able to ride too many more
days.
Unfortunately
though, stage 3 wasn’t good for the team. After working really well all day, we
lost the jersey in what was a hard final with a 1-km climb just before the
finish. That’s cycling though and you have to take the good with the bad. My job
today was to bring Thor to the front at the bottom of the climb and lead him up
the climb for as long as my legs would handle. After yesterday’s crap
performance, I didn't like my chances of making it over the climb to help him in
the sprint finish. And actually, position going into the climb would be more
important anyhow as it would be a little chaotic at the top with each to their
own.
As
it turned out, I ended up looking like a bit of an idiot up the climb. I went to
the front with Thor on my wheel. I went through the last couple of corners then
hit the climb full gas. After a while I pulled off and looked back. To my
surprise, the peloton was 100m behind. Thor had cramped and let the wheel go and
I had nobbed off the front and had no idea…
The
whole thing looked stupid as I was too buggered to keep going and didn't have
enough of a gap back to the peloton to recover and get back in before the
descent. So for those of you who were wondering what I was doing: No I wasn't
attacking I was just trying to bring Thor into a good position. So yeh, the only
thing I took up that climb on my wheel was thin air. Never mind though, got a
few seconds of TV time!!!
In
hindsight, I probably should’ve saved myself for the finish. I would’ve made it
up the climb no problem today but on yesterday’s form that wouldn’t have been
the case and I didn't really want to change the team plan
mid-flight.
So
I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I’m very up and down at the moment and
although I was better today I’m still not confident about my form. Knowing my
luck, I could just as easily feel like I did yesterday again. So we’ll just see
what the day brings. As usual for me, it’s just the old one-day-at-a-time
philosophy at the moment. I won’t forget how much I suffered yesterday just to
make the finish so for the next few days I will be riding
wary.
Julz
PS. Hats off to my old man.
Pete pulled himself through a knee replacement op yesterday and is doing
well.
