Julian Dean Diary
Latest diary entry from the (so-far) Team CSC sprinter.
my Spanish isn't too flash and it's a struggle for me. So having to learn French will no doubt throw a bloody big spanner into my linguistic works that'll make things tough, but in saying this, the skill will be one that I'll take from this team and have for the rest of my life. In that sense, the change will be worth it.
I had a shite time getting a contract. When you've had a successful season like I've had and the team you are riding for doesn't want to re-sign you, there is normally a reason for that. People start to question the integrity and morals of the rider. They think he must be a difficult character and ask, 'Why else does his team not want to re-sign him after he's been so successful?'. I think that a lot of prospective teams thought this. Maybe it's true. Maybe I am a dickhead although I don't like to think so! (For the record Julz, I don't like to think I'm married to a dickhead either! - Carole) I don't really know why CSC didn't want me to keep me. Maybe it came down to the team's current financial situation or my inability to convince Bjarne I was worthy of re-signing. Whatever the case, they never told me and in fact, I was told on many occasions that they wanted to keep me - even though they'd signed 17 riders before finally talking to me. I certainly feel quite disrespected by it all. I always thought it would be a token of respect and loyalty to first take care of those who have done a good service for the team. I did my best for the team the whole year and although there were times when I wasn't good, I always gave 110%. Besides, you can't be good the whole year. The interesting thing was that over the few days when I did try and negotiate with the team, the rough spring I had seemed to be the only thing they've noted from my season. I guess that this highlights one of those harsh realities of pro-cycling. It's more a business than a sport and no matter how passionate you feel about it or how true you stay to it, at the end of the day, for those who fund it, it's just business. Essentially, this was something that helped me to make my decision. In the end, when it came down to talking money, CSC weren't serious about wanting to re-sign me. Although I would have liked to stay with CSC, out of principle I decided not to stay with a team who thinks I'm only worth half of what other teams are willing to pay.
After all is said and done, I'm grateful for the opportunity of riding with CSC for 2 years and I leave a better rider than when I arrived to the team.