Julian Dean Diary
Latest diary entry from the (so-far) Team CSC sprinter.
year, but I've learnt recently that it's not what gets the good contracts. It's the big victories that bring the good contracts. In a way, I don't really think it matters how much you win throughout the season. Unless you can show yourself in the biggest races, you won't really get taken seriously when it comes to contract time. So for me, I wanted to add to my consistent run of wins and places, with a podium in Paris-Tours; to show that I'm close to, and capable of, winning World Cups. Unfortunately, I didn't pull it off. Sixth was a good effort but it won't really help me to take it up another notch.
I've been thinking about the final 2km a lot and I'm not sure where I went wrong or if I could've done better. I know that I let myself get boxed in and ended up with very little room to move when I needed to. For sure I had the speed and strength to make the podium but just not the right moves, in the final few hundred metres, at the right time. Some of it was out of my control - I had no support in the final which made holding position super hard - but a certain percentage of it was my responsibility. I've been as fast as, and often even faster than the fastest guys in the world, over the last month but today I didn't give myself a chance to truly go head to head with them. In retrospect, I should've been more aggressive and thrown a few more elbows. I think that this is what's really eating at me at the moment. Time will pass and I'll get over my disappointment but I won't entirely forget it. I'll try and use it to learn from. It's my best World Cup result and I'm one step closer to making a Classic's podium. This knowledge is great for my confidence and I just have to keeping on pushing for the big one.
As for my future with my new team...I don't really know what to tell you as I don't know what to think myself. I'm not sure what my place will be. They already have a couple of sprinters and I'll be the third. I'll have to show myself early in the season to earn my place in the team. It's a French team so they'll ride the Tour. Hopefully there'll be a chance for me to make the Tour team...Although judging on my past experiences with trying to get to the Tour, I'm not holding my breath.
My biggest hurdle with fitting into the team will be the language barrier. I have to learn French. After living in